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Effort

Come on bro.. All she wants is for you to try. To just be there for her whenever she needs you most. To start her mornings with cute messages that had been sent while she was asleep. & to end every night to the sound to your voice as “i love yous’” roll off your tongue. Those days and nights where you guys spend hours doing completely nothing but cuddling. Her heart doesn’t have a value or price on it. But it does have rules and expectations you need to go by. She expects you to love her. She wants you to make her your number one priority. She wants you give her respect and to be loyal within the relationship. Shes your girl, and dont take her for granted, because im sure guys that know they can treat her better are waiting in line. Enough with the games and enough with the fake spit. Don’t give her a hard time for something you have done. Don’t push her away just because you know that you can, One day shes going to get sick of everything and stop chasing. 

Yup….so true…no matter how hard a person tries to forget :’(

I find it amusing that the week after I wrote my last post you called like nothing happened. When we originally agreed to this, you called 3 weeks in a row and then stopped calling. That is until I wrote…amazing that I still have ppl stalker status on my shit letting you know. Obviously my tumblr isn’t private, I don’t care, read all you want. This would be your only source, my fb is private…but alas I have a spy there, reporting shit to you constantly…and you know what? I don’t give a fuck lol. How pathetic is it that you have to get information like that?

Even though I bitch about you not calling, we enjoyed it. My daughters don’t want to talk to you. Haven’t you noticed it? All the quiet moments in your so called conversations? One word responses, hmmm’s and yea’s…that’s the extent of it. Your I love you, miss you, proud of you…all met with awkward silence. I feel sorry for you. You don’t get it…you’re just the guy they have to call father…dad…or to them, more now nothing but their sperm donor (she learned that at school). They know who the real father is…the one who provides for them and cares for them…their daddy, dada, their Shortie ^.^

You’re proud of them and their many accomplishments…I’m sure you brag about it to all you can…but for what? It’s an empty proudiness (is that a word?)…you didn’t contribute to any of it. We’re here daily, working together, encouraging, supporting and nurturing all the potential in our girls…we deserve to be the proud parents. You’re just an outsider looking in.

Okay so I maybe sound like a bitch saying this stuff but its my thoughts. I am allowed to voice my thoughts. As long as I ensure I never speak ill of you where the girls can hear. They can form their own opinion, which they have…but it could change…and I don’t want to be in any way influence how it goes.

I still will sit here and do whatever is in my girls best interest, even if they might not see it or need it…so that saves you…I prefer there to be an open communication available for them for future references or closure or even perhaps healing. Sometimes it seems it would be so much easier, better even if you just dropped outta their life 100% instead of making half ass attempts at being there maybe 3% Just give them over to me completely and you’ll never have to worry about about them again. No monthly payments or such. Just a thought ;) Now let’s see how quick our spy gets back to you about this :D

Two issues. Two things I wish I never have to deal with ever!

First…if you want me to keep your name outta my mouth (which I have), then you need to do the same. That being said, if you say you don’t want to be apart of my life, then by all means please do stay away. That includes all aspects of it. My relationship, my children, my future plans, etc. And that doesn’t mean going around and asking those we both know for the information. If you want to know so badly, come talk to me then. As of right now, you don’t need to know shit.

Second…who in the fuck do you think you are talking to? I have the biggest distrust of you and your motives and I’m sure it goes the same for you in regards to me. You say I refuse to let you see the children…I called bullshit and you knew it. I have proof to back it up…did you forget who you are dealing with? We agreed you would contact them every week, you did it for 3 weeks and stopped. So wtf are you complaining about how you miss them and such? I called you today due to your transitional insurance getting in the way of the insurance I provide and not once did you ask about them nor to speak to them, and they were right there next to me listening! And then you also think that I don’t know what my insurance covers and try to tell me that MY insurance should cover their dental and vision?? I know that!!! You were suppose to also provide that but nooo YOUR insurance is only because you went overseas and they automatically enroll the dependents you have. Which you failed to inform me and that interrupted MY insurance coverage for them. Now that your back, we have to deal with transitional coverage which still fucks with mine so still I am having issues getting them seen! At the same time, why do you need the information you requested from me? In your files, the copies I provided before should still be there. I call bullshit that its been lost. If that’s the case, have them contact me directly and I will send it directly to them. You don’t seem to want to REALLY be a part of their lives so why in the hell do you need that kind of info??? What are you trying to do? Again, I don’t trust you as far as I can throw you and neither do they. Live with your choices and actions…I promise you’re missing out on sooo much and at the same time, they aren’t missing out on anything where your role is concerned. Our lil family unit is doing fine minus the minor interruptions from you. Thank you for proving me right, they now know they can never count on you.

So I’ve been dealing with stuff and had writers block. Sucks. But I’ve been making more time to read since my creativity has been at a standstill >.< That’s a good thing :)

So its obvious that I didn’t keep up with my 365 challenge…oops. Oh well, there’s other projects in the works. Let’s see how it pans out. Got some stuff that should be written but not ready yet hehe. If I do it will in the moment then its just gonna be brutal…give it time and it won’t be as harsh ;) Have a great day!

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amen.

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That just sucks….poor fairytales