Well it’s been an interesting month. I so wish this part of my life is already done and over with. I am so ready to close this chapter weeks ago. Oh well, things always happen for a reason and I hope that the reason has been learned as should. I mean, there’s still other aspects of it and that’s just going to be it, I hope.
You know, for all purposes, communication is the best key. I am not sure as to why some people still don’t understand that. Why is it that some people sit there and assume the stupidest things? That’s where shit starts, because you always assume instead of actually communicating. I mean if you communicated, you can ask questions, you can talk it out, you can make it clear. Then there would be no issues. But again, I guess that’s just not in you. I don’t know why. I talk up a storm and ask a gazillion questions….sometimes I will ask until I get the answer I want to hear lol
I am not sure if it’s a coincidence that some things happen in my life or it coincides with what I write. Either way, I am grateful for whatever and however it has happened. Again, I am sure that things in life happen for a reason. I know I was questioning things before and trying to figure out how to get the answers without being such a bitch and reopening shit I didn’t want open. I took to writing and it helped, in more ways than one. Whatever the reason, coincidence or not, I am glad it occurred when it did. It’s a good thing that is being done.
There are some things that are still irritating to me. But right now, I rather be using my energy on better things. There is so much that I have to worry about already, I really don’t thing that I need that shit in my life so for now, I am done. I don’t want anything to do with it. I think it is just ridiculous how some things are and it’s high time for a change. I am really ready for that change to come. And I hope that it comes in the best interest of everyone that is involved. And you, know if it doesn’t, fuck it, I’m gonna do it my way and well, take it or leave. I only have to worry about my girls happiness and my own.
Today was the girls first day of school. Wow, I have an 8th grader and a 6th grader. These kids are growing up so fast. I can remember it being yesterday, taking my oldest to preschool and my youngest wanting to go with her. Although it did give me more one on one time with my youngest. Maybe that’s why she likes going out to eat so much with me lol. After this year, my not so lil girl will be in high school. That’s just amazing to think on. I mean, it was long ago that I was in high school but I still remember that time fondly. I may have been a semi quiet but still…trouble was brewing. I wonder how her high school years will be. And then my baby too….I wonder when she hits high school, will she be out of her tom boy stage?
And then at the same time, crap, she’s gonna be in high school. And if any of my memories are correct, crap! I’m in trouble. I wasn’t exactly a quiet bystanding innocent…I was a willing participant in a lot of things. I just hope that their future will be different from how mine turned out to be. I don’t regret what I’ve gone thru, I wouldn’t be the me that I am now. But I do hope that theirs will be a bit smoother and easier than mine ever was. I guess time will tell. We will have to wait and see. I sure like to write don’t I?